Dyslexia

After 13, I seldom read books. I read girls,

And slowly lined them up

On a small shelf where the dust

Grew thicker on some, more than others,

And got lost in them for months on end.

Some were thumbed quickly,

Some were slow to start, but

Were worth the wait

Some were a laugh, but

Not worth a second read.

Most, I regret, were never finished.

And nearly all now forgotten.

Only one didn’t

Make the shelf.

She’s still on the table by my bed

Waiting for me to pick her up again tonight

And start reading on from the place,

Dog-eared in my mind, six years ago.

But I don’t.

Instead,

When the bed swallows me before sleep,

I’ll misquote whole chapters of her aloud.

In this naïve fable, the boy’s browsing

Adolescence matures

On the very last page;

Old enough to read her sad eyes

And know what love means, but

Bold enough to hold onto it like a man.

Published in ‘New Welsh Review’ 2000